What are you looking for in your TRIALS ?!!!

Few years’ back I was in the Middle East to pray for the deliverance of two dear friends who were trapped in several court cases due to an in-house business dispute. They were not allowed to go out of the country as the Government put a travel ban on them. On top of it even after six months, they still had no clue when will they be able to travel to the global destinations for their business. They were innocent and they were so discouraged, because they were unable to travel and do their global assignments and keep their business commitments. No one was able help them and they desperately needed a miracle from God Almighty. At this time of pain, I visited them and started interceding for them with all my heart in fasting and prayer for 21 days.

In a guest house with no telephone, no TV, no news papers, no servants, friends, music and meetings I was happily spending my time alone with God. In the Arabian Desert my deepest desire was to meet up with God face to face and lip to lip. My heart and my flesh deeply craved for an encounter with Him. I said as if in Psalm 42.1-2  “As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?” In Psalm 27:4-5, David said, “One thing I ask of the LORD, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock”.

Nothing happened for two weeks. But afterwards God in His mercy did a mighty miracle for my friends, the Travel ban got lifted up, prayers were answered, my friends were ready to fly again to the nations. But Suddenly I was down with Chicken pox. In my sweet fellowship in the sufferings of Christ, I was trained to do thanks giving and worship to God in total silence with no orchestra, sound system, pulpit and audience.

I had high fever and body pain and there was no one to take care as my friends were very busy. Chicken pox came in the most unexpected moment and I had no strength to even turn and take a glass of water to drink. God is in control of things at all times, in good times and bad times. God send few brave brothers to me who never got infected by chicken pox. They came to know more about my condition and they said, we won’t allow a servant of God like you to suffer like this. They took me to the hospital for contagious diseases and admitted me there which was otherwise impossibe to get admitted. People with visit visas are not admitted in these govt: hospitals. There one day, a man of God named Jacob Mathew from ICPF came to visit me and pray for me and he said brother, “life is a test, so we have to pass the test”. Somehow this time I learned to trust in God more and rest in Him.

I had severe Chest infection; things were getting more complicated. My family in India was in tears and distress. Egyptian doctors who treated me was very rude and behaved to me like harsh generals of the ancient Pharos. They were simply unapproachable and unkind, but there were compassionate and prayerful born again nurses in the hospital. But it was not enough; I remembered the words of Job calling everyone who came to comfort him “miserable comforters”. I desparately needed a touch from God. Any how in the midst of this, from my heart of worship I wrote a new song of praise. I was truely hungry and thirsty for the Lord and I constantly cried deep within to see the glory of God like Apostle John in the island of Patmos.

Then one night as I was sleeping and a nurse came to check my fever, she put a Thermometer in my mouth to observe the temperature and she went to the next room. During that time I continuously coughed and faced the terrible music of death. I lost my breath completely and became lifeless for few moments. In my spirit I knew I left my body for few seconds and I saw the Angels of God standing near me. They looked like huge ten feet pillars clothed in white robes. A little far from them I saw the sheen of God’s glory.

I was inexplicably glad to be somewhere near the Throne of Grace. But on earth in my room the nurse shouted my name so much and my spirit returned to my body. I could feel an emergency landing in my body and I started breathing comfortably, I opened my eyes with a smile. I asked the nurse what happened sister? I saw her shivering; she said you packed your bags for few moments. One Pakistani and a Bangladeshi was also there in the same room, they looked so frightened and pale, they said they thought they were witnessing my death.

After few days I recovered and got discharged from the hospital and joyfully came back Home to my family. I was broken and lonely, terribly sick and tired, nearly abandoned in a desert…but I forgot those difficult times from my memory. But I remember the hand of God that helped me to pass the test in the valley of the shadow of death. And I have found what I was looking for, my God, His awesome presence and His glory.

My dear friend, if you are going through any trial today may I ask you a question, “ In the midst of every thing, what are you looking for?”. Apostle James said, “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything” .

Dont worry and blame anybody, in all circumstances, you can do all things through Christ who strengthens you. The love of the Father and the grace of His Son and the communion of His Holy Spirit is forever sufficient for you. Trust in God and let our faith rest in His power. He is the Lord of life and resurrection. Amen!!!


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