Ultimately, what are you looking for ?!!!

Few years back I travelled to the Middle East in order to visit my friends in trouble. They were trapped in several court cases due to an in-house business dispute. They were not allowed to go out of the country. The Government put them on a travel ban. Even after six months, they still had no idea, when will they be free to fly again. No one could help them at that time and they desperately needed a miracle from God Almighty. At this time, I was there and I started interceding for them in fasting and prayer for 21 days.
In a guest house with no telephone, TV, News Papers, servants, friends, music and meetings I was enjoying my time alone with God. My deepest desire was to meet up with God face to face and lip to lip. Day and night there my heart and my flesh deeply craved to see HIM. No extra ordinary encounter with God happened for two weeks. Now God in His mercy did a miracle for my friends, the Travel ban got lifted; they were ready to fly again to the nations. But suddenly I was down with Chicken pox, oh what a suffering it was for me. I learned to do thanks giving and worship even in sickness and silence. No microphones, orchestra backup, sound system, pulpit and audience, nevertheless the presence of God was awesome.
I had high fever and body pain and there was no one to take care of me. My friends were very busy. Chicken pox came in the most unexpected moment and I was alone in the room with no strength to even turn and drink a glass of water. Then God send few brave born again brothers who never got infected by chicken pox. They came to know about my condition and they turned up and said we won’t allow a servant of God like you to suffer here like this. They took me to the hospital for contagious diseases. There one day a beloved brother visited me and said my brother, “life is a test”. Somehow I learned more to trust in God in my test and found rest in Him.
I had severe Chest infection; things were getting complicated. My family in India was in deep distress. The Egyptian Doctors in that hospital was rude and they behaved like harsh military generals. They were simply unapproachable and unkind. But the born again staff nurses in the hospital were very kind to me. Even then everyone seemed to me like miserable comforters. In the midst of all the trouble, seeking God I wrote a song of praise. I was hungry and thirsty for the Lord, my inner man cried to see the glory of God like John in the island of Patmos.
Then one night as I was sleeping, a nurse came to check my fever; she put the thermometer in my mouth and went to the next room. During that time I coughed so badly, I lost my breath and became lifeless for a little while. It was an extra ordinary experience as if in a takeoff of a jet plane. My spirit left my body for few seconds. And I saw the Angels of God standing near me. They looked like huge white pillars covered in glorious white clothing. Beyond in the distance I saw the sheen of God’s glory. I was inexplicably glad to see the glimpse of glory shining from the Throne of Grace. Nevertheless back in my room the nurse returned and saw the mess and she shouted my name repeatedly. But then I heard her desperate call in very low volume and my spirit returned to my body. I could feel an emergency landing taking place; I heard the sounds of a destroyed computer game. I started breathing normally and I smiled as if nothing happened and then opened my eyes to see the nurse exhausted and shivering.
I asked the nurse what happened sister? Softly she said, you simply packed your bags for few moments. One Pakistani and a Bangladeshi who shared the same room, their face looked so pale. When I asked them what happened? They said, they thought they were witnessing my death. In fact that was my healing point. I remembered what Jesus said, “The one who believes in Me will live even if he die”.
After few days I recovered completely and got discharged from the hospital and then later came back Home to India. Few days in the Middle east, I was rejected; broken, lonely, terribly sick and totally tired, nearly abandoned in a desert. By God’s compassion, those difficult times of suffering is deleted from my memory. But I joyfully remember our God’s companionship, the sweetness of His grace that empowered me to pass the test in a real life plot. I have found what I was looking for, my God in His mercy and in His glory.
My dear friend, if you are going through any trial today may I ask you a question, “Ultimately, what are you looking for?” Apostle James said, “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything”.
There is hope that doesn’t disappoint us, because our hope is in HIM. There is light at the end of the tunnel, because He is the Light of life. Fear not, because He lives. Fret not, because He is the Hope of Glory. Never give up, because He said, I will never leave you nor forsake you, till the end of time. He is the Alpha and Omega. At all times the abundance of the fullness of His grace that is in Christ is sufficient for all of us who rest in Him. Amen!!! – http://www.vjtraven.com

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